TED演讲：解读羞耻(1)

 　　I'm going to tell you a little bit about my TEDxHouston Talk.  我要跟大家讲一点关于我TEDxHouston演讲的事。

　　I woke up the morning after I gave that talk with the worst vulnerability hangover of my life.  在演讲之后的那个早上，是我这辈子经历过最糟糕，最脆弱的宿醉。

　　And I actually didn't leave my house for about three days. 而且我有三天都足不出户。

　　The first time I left was to meet a friend for lunch.  第一次出门是去见个朋友一起吃午饭。

　　And when I walked in, she was already at the table. I sat down, and she said, "God, you look like hell."  当我进去的时候，她已经在餐桌上了。然后我坐下，然后她说： “天啊，你看起来真颓。”

　　I said, "Thanks. I feel really -- I'm not functioning."  我说：“谢谢啊，我觉得 -- 我都不能正常思考了。”

　　And she said, "What's going on?"  然后她说：“什么情况？”

　　And I said, "I just told 500 people that I became a researcher to avoid vulnerability.  然后我说：“我刚刚告诉了500个人，说我成为了一个避免脆弱的研究者。

　　And that when being vulnerable emerged from my data, as absolutely essential to whole-hearted living, I told these 500 people that I had a breakdown¹.  而当我的数据表明，保持脆弱是全心投入生活所不可或缺的基础时，我告诉这500个人，我崩溃了。

　　I had a slide that said 'Breakdown.' At what point did I think that was a good idea?" 我放了张幻灯片写着崩溃，我是搭了哪根弦会觉得这是个好点子呢？”

　　And she said, "I saw your talk live-streamed. It was not really you.  然后她说：“我看了你演讲的现场视频了，那不太像你。

　　It was a little different than what you usually do. But it was great."  跟你平常有点不一样，不过真的很棒。”

　　And I said, "This can't happen. YouTube, they're putting this thing on YouTube. And we're going to be talking about 600, 700 people." 然后我说：“我得阻止这个上YouTube，他们要把这个放到YouTube上去。那就是600人，700人的事了。”

　　And she said, "Well, I think it's too late." And I said, "Let me ask you something."  然后她说：“这样啊，我看来不及了。”于是我说：“问你一下。”

　　And she said, "Yeah." I said, "Do you remember when we were in college, really wild and kind of dumb?"  她说：“好。”然后我说：“你还记得在大学时代特别疯特别傻的那时候吗？”

　　She said, "Yeah." I said, "Remember when we'd leave a really bad message on our ex-boyfriend's answering machine?  然后她说：“记得呀。” 于是我说：“还记得我们那时候，给前男友的答录机留了一段特别糟的话，

　　Then we'd have to break into his dorm room and then erase² the tape?" 然后我们不得不撬开他宿舍的门， 然后把那段话抹掉的事吗？

1 breakdown   

n.垮，衰竭；损坏，故障，倒塌

参考例句：

• She suffered a nervous breakdown.她患神经衰弱。
• The plane had a breakdown in the air,but it was fortunately removed by the ace pilot.飞机在空中发生了故障，但幸运的是被王牌驾驶员排除了。

2 erase   

v.擦掉；消除某事物的痕迹

参考例句：

• He tried to erase the idea from his mind.他试图从头脑中抹掉这个想法。
• Please erase my name from the list.请把我的名字从名单上擦去。