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A Morning Prayer in a Little Church
By Helen Hayes
Once, years ago, I got into a dogfight. I was wheeling a baby carriage, my pet cocker spaniel trotting1 beside me. Without warning, three dogs—an Afghan, a St. Bernard and a Dalmatian—pounced on the cocker and started tearing him to pieces. I shrieked2 for help. Two men in a car stopped, looked, and drove on.
When I saw that I was so infuriated that I waded3 in and stopped the fight myself. My theatrical4 training never stood me in better stead. My shouts were so authoritative5, my gestures so arresting, I commanded the situation like a lion-tamer and the dogs finally slunk away.
Looking back, I think I acted less in anger than from a realization6 that I was on my own, that if anybody was going to help me at that moment, it had to be myself.
Life seems to be a series of crises that have to be faced. In summoning strength to face them, though, I once fooled myself into an exaggerated regard of my own importance. I felt very independent. I was only distantly aware of other people. I worked hard and was “successful.” In the theater, I was brought up in the tradition of service. The audience pays its money and you are expected to give your best performance—both on and off the stage. So I served on committees, and made speeches, and backed causes. But somehow the meaning of things escaped me.
When my daughter died of polio, everybody stretched out a hand to help me, but at first I couldn’t seem to bear the touch of anything, even the love of friends; no support seemed strong enough.
While Mary was still sick, I used to go early in the morning to a little church near the hospital to pray. There the working people came quietly to worship. I had been careless with my religion. I had rather cut God out of my life, and I didn’t have the nerve at the time to ask Him to make my daughter well—I only asked Him to help me understand, to let me come in and reach Him. I prayed there every morning and I kept looking for a revelation, but nothing happened.
And then, much later, I discovered that it had happened, right there in the church. I could recall, vividly7, one by one, the people I had seen there—the solemn laborers8 with tired looks, the old women with gnarled hands. Life had knocked them around, but for a brief moment they were being refreshed by an ennobling experience. It seemed as they prayed their worn faces lighted up and they became the very vessels9 of God. Here was my revelation. Suddenly I realized I was one of them. In my need I gained strength from the knowledge that they too had needs, and I felt an interdependence with them. I experienced a flood of compassion10 for people. I was learning the meaning of “Love thy neighbor….”
Truths as old and simple as this began to light up for me like the faces of the men and women in the little church. When I read the Bible now, as I do frequently, I take the teachings of men like Jesus and David and St. Paul as the helpful advice of trusted friends about how to live. They understand that life is full of complications and often heavy blows and they are showing me the wisest way through it. I must help myself, yes, but I am not such a self-contained unit that I can live aloof11, unto myself. This was the meaning that had been missing before: the realization that I was a living part of God’s world of people.
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小跑,急走( trot的现在分词 ); 匆匆忙忙地走 | |
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v.尖叫( shriek的过去式和过去分词 ) | |
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(从水、泥等)蹚,走过,跋( wade的过去式和过去分词 ) | |
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4 theatrical | |
adj.剧场的,演戏的;做戏似的,做作的 | |
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adj.有权威的,可相信的;命令式的;官方的 | |
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6 realization | |
n.实现;认识到,深刻了解 | |
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adv.清楚地,鲜明地,生动地 | |
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n.血管( vessel的名词复数 );船;容器;(具有特殊品质或接受特殊品质的)人 | |
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n.同情,怜悯 | |
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11 aloof | |
adj.远离的;冷淡的,漠不关心的 | |
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