这就是我母亲的世界：感情与情感。然而，这两者却从未平静过。

 

She told us how she felt pangs of emptiness at the sight of other children in their fathers’ arms, how she wished he were there so she could be like the others. As a child, she couldn’t let go of that profound and natural desire. This is also why, after her divorces to both my father and my brother Luca’s father, she did all she could to ensure that we continued to enjoy a complete relationship with both.

 

That was my mother’s world: feelings and emotions. Yet her feelings and emotions were never quite peaceful. Someone once wrote that feelings cause us to act, whereas emotions cause us to react. Well, she has feelings for all of us, yet she was never able to let go her emotions or find peace with herself. She was truly scared on some level. The abandonment of her father was a wound that never truly healed. She never really trusted that love would stay.