And so we've come full circle, he concluded. “所以现在我们又回到了开始的地方。”他作出了结语。

Have you always stayed with Carlisle, then? I wondered. “那么，你一直都跟卡莱尔在一起吗？”我想知道。

Almost always. He put his hand lightly on my waist and pulled me with him as he walked through the door.  “大部分时候是。”他轻柔地把手放到我的腰间，拥着我向门外走去。

I stared back at the wall of pictures, wondering if I would ever get to hear the other stories. 我回头看着那满墙的照片，想知道我是否听到其它的故事。

Edward didn't say any more as we walked down the hall, so I asked, Almost? 当我们走过走廊的时候，爱德华只字不提，所以我问道。“大部分？”

He sighed, seeming reluctant to answer. Well, I had a typical bout of rebellious adolescence — about ten years after I was… born… created,  他叹了口气，似乎很不情愿回答。“好吧，我有过一段典型的青春期中的叛逆期——大约在我……新生……被创造出来的十年之后，

whatever you want to call it. I wasn't sold on his life of abstinence, and I resented him for curbing my appetite. So I went off on my own for a time. 你想怎么称呼都行。我对他那种禁欲的生活不感兴趣，而且我厌恶他遏制我的欲望。所以我离开了，独自过活了一段时间。”

Really? I was intrigued, rather than frightened, as I perhaps should have been. “真的？”我被激起的好奇远胜于我的惊讶，也超出了我应该好奇的程度。

He could tell. I vaguely realized that we were headed up the next flight of stairs, but I wasn't paying much attention to my surroundings. 他能分辨出来。我隐隐约约地意识到我们正在走上通往另一层的楼梯，但我完全没有注意到自己周围的环境。

That doesn't repulse you? No. “那没有击退你吗？”“没有。”

Why not? “为什么没有呢？”

I guess… it sounds reasonable. “我猜……这听起来很合理。”

He barked a laugh, more loudly than before. We were at the top of the stairs now, in another paneled hallway. 他厉声笑着，比之前笑得还要响。我们现在已经走到了楼梯顶上，站在了另一个镶嵌着木地板的走廊里。

From the time of my new birth, he murmured, I had the advantage of knowing what everyone around me was thinking, both human and non-human alike.  “从我重获新生时起，”他喃喃低语道。“我就获得了知晓周围每一个人的想法的优势，不管对方是否是人类。

That's why it took me ten years to defy Carlisle — I could read his perfect sincerity, understand exactly why he lived the way he did. 这就是为什么我在过了十年之后才敢挑衅卡莱尔——我能读到他全然的真挚，确切地理解他为什么要过着这样的生活。”

It took me only a few years to return to Carlisle and recommit to his vision. I thought I would be exempt from the… depression… that accompanies a conscience.  “但只过了几年，我又回到了卡莱尔身边，重新接受他的观点。那时候我想着，我可以得到解脱的，从那种……沮丧……中得到赦免，并且是伴随着一种良心的产生的沮丧。

Because I knew the thoughts of my prey, I could pass over the innocent and pursue only the evil.  因为我能知道我的牺牲品的想法，我可以略过那些无辜者，而只去猎食那些坏人。

If I followed a murderer down a dark alley where he stalked a young girl — if I saved her, then surely I wasn't so terrible. 如果我追踪着一个在暗巷里偷偷靠近一个年轻女孩的谋杀犯——如果我救了她，那么的确我就没那么坏了。”