《美少女的谎言》第3季第169期:放手找回父亲（在线收听）

Can I ask you something?

能问你件事吗

Have you ever...

你有没有...

thought about what your life would be like

想过如果六七岁时

if your dad had been around

你爸爸陪在你身边

when you were, like, six or seven?

你的人生会是什么样子

Dumb question. I shouldn't have asked that.

蠢问题 当我没问

No. No, it wasn't dumb.

不 不蠢

Yeah. When I was young, I... I looked for him everywhere.

小时候 我满世界找他

In the streets, in stores.

大街上 商店里

I even looked for him in my sleep.

甚至梦中

But when I was about 13, I just stopped.

但在我13岁的时候 我突然放手了

Why?

为什么

I guess I was just tired of...

我猜我只是厌倦了

using all that energy, ya know.

精疲力竭的感觉

I just needed to focus on me.

我应该更关注我自己

And I'm totally fine with the way things turned out.

而后来事情的发展我也全盘接受了

Really. But...

真的 不过

I'd be lying if I said there weren't days

如果我说我从未渴望过

that I wish I could replace the guy I made up in my head

我幻想中的那个人是活生生存在的

with a real person.

那我一定是在撒谎