Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts

 

No medication's ever made them stop

 

All I think about is everything I'm not

 

Instead of everything I've got

 

 

 

'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing

 

So I make the joke first

 

If I beat 'em to the punchline

 

Then I can't get hurt

 

Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying

 

But I don't know how to be

 

How to be a good friend to me

 

 

 

'Cause sometimes I just feel like I'm a freak

 

When I wake up, I just don't like what I see

 

All the way from my head right down to my feet

 

Wish that I felt differently

 

 

 

But I'm scared they're all laughing

 

So I make the joke first

 

If I beat 'em to the punchline

 

Then I can't get hurt

 

Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying

 

But I don't know how to be

 

How to be a good friend to me

 

 

 

Change

 

Wonder if I'll ever really change

 

 

 

'Cause I'm scared they're all laughing

 

So I make the joke first

 

If I beat 'em to the punchline

 

Then I can't get hurt

 

Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying

 

But I don't know how to be

 

How to be a good friend to

 

 

 

The voice inside my head that's telling me I'm okay

 

Entertain it for a second, then I push it away

 

Yeah, I swear to God I'm trying

 

But I don't know how to be

 

How to be a good friend to me

 

 

 

Thoughts

 

Sometimes I just can't control my thoughts