英文演讲录 塔丝·潘努：从程序员到演员(3)（在线收听）

Well, talking about my entering into movies, well movies happened to me because I gave my CAT exam after my fourth year exams, ended up getting like not so good, but good for many, 88.

下面谈谈我进入电影界，遇上好电影时，因为我在四年级考试后参加了CAT考试，结果不太好只有88分，但那对很多来说还可以了。

88 percentile for me was not so good because I wanted to just cross 90 and didn't want to aim for IIMs.

88分对我来说不太好，因为我想超过90分，我的目标不是IIMs。

I knew my reality.

我知道我的真实水平。

So, I was like, just let me go through some decent college of Delhi, Bombay.

所以，我就想，就让我读一所像样的在德里孟买的大学吧。

Don't want to go and do some remote area.

我不想去偏远地区。

So, let me just give it again next year.

所以，明年再考一次。

Next year means one year of sitting idle.

明年意味着闲置一年。

By the way, I forgot to mention, I was placed in Infosys in my third year, first on on-campus placement that happened.

顺便说一下，我忘了说，我第三年被安排到印孚瑟斯，第一次是在校园实习。

Yeah. And that was not because I wanted that job.

不是因为我想要那份工作。

It was only to prove to my father that I'm capable of getting a job.

这只是为了向我父亲证明我有能力找到工作。

Now it's up to me to join it or no.

现在是我加入还是不加入的问题了。

So, it was purely for that.

所以，这纯粹是为了这个。

So, I did that.

所以，我就这么做了。

I got my job and after my CAT exam failure, I should say so, one year I thought, okay, let me just prepare for my CAT again.

我找到了工作，我应该说，在我的CAT考试失败后，有一年我想，好吧，让我再准备一次我的CAT考试吧。

I'll give it next year.

我会在明年考个好成绩。

What to do this one year?

这一年要做什么呢？

I don't want to sit idle.

我不想无所事事。

I'm used to multi-tasking, you can't make me sit at one place for long.

我习惯了一心多用，你不能让我长时间坐在一个地方。

As you can see, I've been just walking and strolling around.

如你所见，我一直在四处走。

Well, so yeah, that's what I did one year.

是的，有一年我就是这么做的。

And I ended up becoming a part of the, you know, the six national award-winning movie Aadukalam for Tamil.

我最终成为了，六个国家获奖电影《阿杜卡拉姆泰米尔人》的一分子。

That was my first movie.

那是我的第一部电影。

And thank you so much, but I didn't win any of those national awards out of those six.

非常感谢你们，但我没有赢得这六个国家奖项中的任何一个。

I think I was the only one who didn't win there.

我想我是唯一一个没有在电影里成功的人。

It's okay.

没关系的。

I have a deal with that director that I'm going to come again in his movie and probably win one soon.

我和那个导演有个约定，我会在他的电影里再来一次，很可能很快就会成功一部。

So, yeah.

所以，是的。

So, that happened.

所以，事情就这样发生了。

And before that movie released, I was probably one of those very few newcomers who was changing my, I mean, character between the Telugu actress and a Tamil actress simultaneously because I was working on one Tamil, one Telugu movie side by side.

在那部电影上映之前，我可能是少数几个同时在泰卢固族女演员和泰米尔女演员之间角色转换的新人之一，因为我正在同时拍摄一部泰米尔语电影，一部泰卢固语电影。

And had three movies signed already before my first release.

在我电影第一次上映之前已经签了三部电影。

So, there was something that directors kept on telling me that you have something which you need to work upon, will be great if you do.

所以，导演们一直告诉我，你有一些事情需要努力，如果你做了，就会很棒。

You have a certain kind of screen presence is what they called it.

你有一种特殊的荧屏感，这就是他们所说的。

And I thought they're just making me feel nice because they don't want me to feel out of place amongst all actors.

我认为他们只是让我感觉很好，因为他们不想让我在所有演员中感到格格不入。

But yes, I mean, I would like to believe so, they really saw something which I couldn't.

我的意思是，我愿意相信，他们真的看到了一些我看不到的东西。

Because a few years down the line, after three years you can say, I completed like 15 movies in three years.

因为我在三年内完成了大约15部电影。

And in South it's a huge, it was a huge.

而在南方，它是一个巨大的成果。

Because in one year, I remember I had seven releases, so I was really thinking, okay, what am I doing.

因为在一年内，我记得我发行了七个版本，所以我真的在想，我在做什么。

Morning I'm going for one movie's shift, evening, I'm going for another shift.

早上我要去上一场电影的班，晚上我要去上另一班。

I'm barely sleeping.

我几乎没时间睡觉。

What exactly am I doing?

我到底在做什么？

Is this acting?

这是演戏吗？

Do I really know acting?

我真的懂表演吗？

Am I really enjoying it?

我真的很享受吗？

After three years imagine, because I didn't have a single day to sit and introspect that is this what I really want to do.

你可以想象一下三年后什么样子，因为我没有一天可以坐下来反省我真正想做的。