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Marko, the largest member of the group, also laughed the loudest. There was some ratio betweenthe size of his body and the radius of his bellows. Also, there was a similar link between thevolume of his voice and the bright shade of his hair. I was a ginger, self-conscious about it, butMarko was an extreme ginger and owned it.

I gawped at him and thought: Teach me to be like that.

Marko, however, wasn’t your typical teacher. Perpetually moving, perpetually doing, he lovedmany things—food, travel, nature, guns, us—but he had no interest in giving lectures. He wasmore about leading by example. And having a good time. He was one great big ginger MardiGras, and if you wanted to join the party, wonderful, and if not, that was grand too. I wonderedmany times, watching him wolf his dinner, gulp his gin, shout another joke, slap another trackeron the back, why more people weren’t like this guy.

Why didn’t more at least try?

I wanted to ask Willy what it was like to have such a man minding him, guiding him, butapparently the Eton rule carried over to Botswana: Willy didn’t want to know me in the bush anymore than he did back at school.

The one thing about Marko that gave me pause was his time in the Welsh Guards. I’dsometimes look at him on that trip and see those eight Welsh Guards in their red tunics, hoistingthat coffin onto their shoulders and marching down the abbey aisle…I tried to remind myself thatMarko wasn’t there that day. I tried to remind myself that, anyway, the box was empty.

All was well.

When Tiggy “suggested” I go to bed, always before everyone else, I didn’t squawk. The dayswere long, the tent was a welcome cocoon. Its canvas smelt pleasantly of old books, its floor wascovered with soft antelope skins, my bed was wrapped in a cozy African rug. For the first time inmonths, years, I’d drop off straightaway. Of course it helped to have that campfire glowing againstthe wall, to hear those adults on the other side, and the animals beyond. Screeches, bleats, roars,what a racket they made after dark—their busy time. Their rush hour. The later it got, the louderthey got. I found it soothing. I also found it hilarious: no matter how loud the animals, I could stillhear Marko laughing.

One night, before I fell asleep, I made myself a promise: I’m going to find a way to make thatguy laugh.