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He was to be our new private secretary: Jamie Lowther-Pinkerton was his name. But I don’tremember Willy and me referring to him as anything other than JLP.

We should’ve just called him Marko II. Or maybe Marko 2.0. He was meant to be Marko’sreplacement, but also a more official, more detailed, more permanent version of our dear friend.

All the things Marko had been doing informally, the minding and guiding and advising, JLPwould now do formally, we were told. In fact it was Marko who’d found JLP, and recommendedhim to Pa, and then trained him. So we already trusted the man, right from the start. He came withthat all-important seal of approval. Marko said he was a good man.

Deeply calm, slightly stiff, JLP wore shiny gold cufflinks and a gold signet ring, symbols of hisprobity, constancy, and stalwart belief in a certain kind of steadfast style. You always got thesense that, even on the morning of Armageddon, JLP would button in these amulets before leavingthe house.

Despite his spit and polish, however, his enameled exterior, JLP was a force, the product ofBritain’s finest military training, which meant, among other things, that he didn’t deal in bullshit.

He didn’t give it, didn’t take it, and everyone, far and wide, seemed to know. When Britishofficials decided to launch a massive offensive against a Colombian drug cartel, they chose JLP tolead it. When the actor Ewan McGregor decided to take a three-month motorbike trip throughMongolia and Siberia and Ukraine, for which he’d require survival training, he turned to JLP.

To me, JLP’s finest trait was his reverence for truth, his expertise in truth. He was the oppositeof so many people in government and working in the Palace. So, not long after he started workingfor Willy and me, I asked him to get me some truth—in the form of the secret police files onMummy’s crash.

He looked down, looked away. Yes, he worked for Willy and me, but he cared about us too,and he cared about tradition, chain of command. My request seemed to jeopardize all three. Hegrimaced and furrowed his brow, an amorphous area, since JLP didn’t have a lot of hair. Finally,he smoothed back the charcoal bristles remaining on each side and said that, were he to procuresaid files, it would be very upsetting for me. Very upsetting indeed, Harry.

Yes. I know. Sort of the point.

He nodded. Ah. Hmm. I see.

A few days later he brought me into a tiny office up a back staircase in St. James’s Palace andhanded me a brown Do Not Bend envelope. He said he’d decided against showing me all thepolice files. He’d gone through and removed the more…“challenging” ones. For your sake.

I was frustrated. But I didn’t argue. If JLP didn’t think I could handle them, then I probablycouldn’t.

I thanked him for protecting me.

He said he’d leave me to it, then walked out.

I took several breaths, opened the file.

Exterior photos. Outside the tunnel in which the crash occurred. Looking into the mouth of thetunnel.

Interior photos. A few feet inside the tunnel.

Deep interior photos. Well inside the tunnel. Looking down the tunnel, and out the other end.

Finally… close- ups of the smashed Mercedes, which was said to have entered the tunnelaround midnight and never emerged in one piece.

All seemed to be police photos. But then I realized that many, if not most, were from paps andother photographers at the scene. The Paris police had seized their cameras. Some photos weretaken moments after the crash, some much later. Some showed police officers walking about,others showed onlookers milling and gawping. All gave a sense of chaos, a disgraceful carnivalatmosphere.

Now came more detailed photos, clearer, closer, inside the Mercedes. There was the lifelessbody of Mummy’s friend, whom I now knew to be her boyfriend. There was her bodyguard,who’d survived the crash, though it left him with gruesome injuries. And there was the driver,slumped over the wheel. He was blamed by many for the crash, because there was allegedlyalcohol in his blood, and because he was dead and couldn’t answer.

At last I came to the photos of Mummy. There were lights around her, auras, almost halos.

How strange. The color of the lights was the same color as her hair—golden. I didn’t know whatthe lights were, I couldn’t imagine, though I came up with all sorts of supernatural explanations.

As I realized their true origin, my stomach clenched.

Flashes. They were flashes. And within some of the flashes were ghostly visages, and halfvisages, paps and reflected paps and refracted paps on all the smooth metal surfaces and glasswindscreens. Those men who’d chased her…they’d never stopped shooting her while she laybetween the seats, unconscious, or semiconscious, and in their frenzy they’d sometimesaccidentally photographed each other. Not one of them was checking on her, offering her help, noteven comforting her. They were just shooting, shooting, shooting.

I hadn’t known. I hadn’t dreamed. I’d been told that paps chased Mummy, that they’d huntedher like a pack of wild dogs, but I’d never dared to imagine that, like wild dogs, they’d alsofeasted on her defenseless body. I hadn’t been aware, before this moment, that the last thingMummy saw on this earth was a flashbulb.

Unless…Now I looked much closer at Mummy: no visible injuries. She was slumped, out of it,but generally…fine. Better than fine. Her dark blazer, her glowing hair, her radiant skin—doctorsat the hospital where she was taken couldn’t stop remarking how beautiful she was. I stared, tryingto make myself cry, but I couldn’t, because she was so lovely, and so alive.

Maybe the photos JLP held back were more definitive. Maybe they showed death in plainerterms. But I didn’t consider that possibility too closely. I slammed the folder shut and said: She’shiding.

I’d requested this file because I sought proof, and the file proved nothing, except that Mummywas in a car crash, after which she looked generally unharmed, while those who chased hercontinued to harass her. That was all. Rather than proof, I’d discovered more reasons for rage. Inthat little office, seated before that wretched Do Not Bend envelope, the red mist came down, andit wasn’t a mist, it was a torrent.