【英文】Dear diary,I couldn't have been more wrong. I thought that I could smile, nod my way through it.pretend like it would all be OK.I had a plan.I wanted to change who I was,create a life as someone new.someone without the past.Without the pain.Someone alive.But it's not that easy.the bad things stay with you.they follow you.you can’t escape them,as much as you want to.all you can do is be ready for the good. So when it comes,you invite it in,because you need it. I need it.

【翻译】亲爱的日记，我真是大错特错了。我曾经想我能微笑着走下去，装作我没事儿的样子。我曾经打算，改变自己获得新生，变成一个没有过去，没有痛苦的人真正活着的人。但是这并不容易，坏事纠缠着你、追随着你。你摆脱不了它们，无论你多想摆脱。你唯一能做的就是等待好事降临。当它们降临你邀请它们进来，因为你需要它们。我需要它。