"To me, it was like you were some kind of demon, summoned straight from my own personal hell to ruin me. “那时对我来说，你就像是某种恶魔，是直接从我自己的炼狱里被召唤出来，来毁掉我的。

The fragrance coming off your skin... I thought it would make me deranged that first day. 你的肌肤上散发着的芬芳……我本以为它会让我在第一天就发狂了。

In that one hour, I thought of a hundred different ways to lure you from the room with me, to get you alone. 那一个小时里，我想到了一百种不同的方式把你从这个房间里引诱出去，让你落单。

And I fought them each back, thinking of my family, what I could do to them. 但我把所有这些想法都击退了，我想到了我的家族，想到我能为他们做什么。

I had to run out, to get away before I could speak the words that would make you follow..." 我不得不冲出去，在我说出任何让你跟着的话以前离开……”

He looked up then at my staggered expression as I tried to absorb his bitter memories. 他抬起头，注视着我脸上难以置信的神情，我正试图消化他痛苦的回忆。

His golden eyes scorched from under his lashes, hypnotic and deadly. 他金色的眼睛在睫毛下焦灼着，催眠而致命。

"You would have come," he promised. “那时你一定会跟着来的。”他保证道。

I tried to speak calmly. "Without a doubt." 我努力用平静的语气说：“而且毫无疑虑。”

He frowned down at my hands, releasing me from the force of his stare. 他皱起眉，看着我的手，让我从他眼中的魔力里解脱出来。

"And then, as I tried to rearrange my schedule in a pointless attempt to avoid you, “然后，当我试图重新安排我的课表，徒劳地想要避开你的时候，

you were there—in that close, warm little room, the scent was maddening. 你就在那里——在那间密闭的，温暖的小屋子里，你的香气简直让我发狂。

I so very nearly took you then. 我几乎差点就要对你得手了。

There was only one other frail human there—so easily dealt with." 那里只有另一个脆弱的人类——太容易处理了。”

I shivered in the warm sun, seeing my memories anew through his eyes, only now grasping the danger. 我在温暖的阳光里颤抖着，从他的眼里再次寻回了自己的回忆，在这时我才意识到那时候的危机。

Poor Ms. Cope; I shivered again at how close I'd come to being inadvertently responsible for her death. 可怜的柯普夫人。我再次战栗着，因为想到我只差一点点就会无意地导致了她的死亡。