I Don't Know How To Love Him

I Don't Know How To Love Him

    I don*t know how to love him, what to do, how to move him? I*ve been changed, yes, really changed. In these past few days when I see myself, I seem like someone else.
    I don*t know how to take this. I don*t see why he moves me. He*s a man, he*s just a man, and I*ve had so many men before. In very many ways, he*s just one more.
    Should I bring him down? Should I scream¹ and shout? Should I speak of love, let my feelings out? I never thought I*d come to this. What*s it all about?
    Don*t you think it*s rather funny-I should be in this position? I*m the one who has always been so calm, so cool, no lover*s fool. Running every show, he scares² me so.
    Yet, if he said he loved me, I*d be lost, I*d be frightened. I couldn*t cope³, just couldn*t cope. I*d turn my head, I*d back away. I wouldn*t want him to know; he scares me so. I want him so. I love him so.

1 scream   

n.尖叫声；vi. 尖叫，大笑，尖啸，令人震惊；vt.尖叫着说，大叫大嚷着要求

参考例句：

• Don't scream,I can hear what you are saying.别喊，我听得见你说些什么。
• He was so funny，he made us scream with laughter.他很有趣，逗得我们哈哈大笑。

2 scares   

n.煤中黄铁矿薄片v.恐吓，使惊恐( scare的第三人称单数 )；受惊吓，感到害怕

参考例句：

• The horse scares easily. 马容易受惊。 来自《现代英汉综合大词典》
• He scares people away by being so brash. 他狂妄自大把别人都吓跑了。 来自辞典例句

3 cope   

v.(with)竞争，对抗；对付，妥善处理

参考例句：

• He had a lot of work,but he was able to cope.他的活虽多，但还能应付得来。
• They have to cope with a mountain of problems.他们得应付成堆的问题。