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To Fanny Brawne, August 1820
My dearest Girl;
I wish you could invent some means to make me at all happy without you. Every hour I am more concentrated in you; every thing else tastes like chaff1 in my Mouth. I feel it almost impossible to go to Italy—the fact is I cannot leave you, and shall never taste one minute’s content until it pleases chance to let me live with you for good. But I will not go on at this rate. A person in health as you are can have no conception of the horrors that nerves and a temper like mine go through. What Island do your friends propose retiring to? I should be happy to go with you there alone, but in company I should object to it; the backbitings and jealousies2 of new colonists3 who have nothing else to amuse themselves, is unbearable4. Mr. Dilke came to see me yesterday, and gave me a very great deal more pain than pleasure. I shall never be able any more to endure to for the society of any of those who used to meet at Elm Cottage and Wentorth Place. The last two years taste like brass5 upon my Palate. If I cannot live with you I will live alone. I do not think my health will improve much while I am separated from you. For all this I am averse6 to seeing you—I cannot bear flashes of light and return into my glooms again. I am not so unhappy with you seems such an impossibility! It requires a luckier star than mine! It will never be. I enclose a passage from one of your letters which I want you to alter a little—I want (if you will have it so) the matter expressed less coldly to me. If my health would bear it, I could write a Poem which I have in my head, which would be a consolation7 for people in such a situation as mine. I would show some one in Love as I am, with a person living in such Liberty as you do. Shakespeare always sums up matters in the most sovereign manner. Hamlet’s heart was full of such Misery8 as mine is when he said to Ophelia “go to a Nunnery, go, go” Indeed I should like to give up the matter at once—I should like to die. I am sickened at the brute9 world which you are smiling with. I hate men and women more. I see nothing but thorns for the future—wherever I may be next winter in Italy or nowhere Brown will be living near you with his indecencies—I see no prospect10 of any rest. Suppose me in Rome—well, I should there see you as in a magic glass going to and from town at all hours, --I wish you could infuse a little confidence in human nature into my heart. I cannot muster11 any—the world is too brutal12 for me—I am glad there is such a thing as the grave –I am sure I shall never have any rest till I get there At any rate I will indulge myself by never seeing any more Dilke or Brown or any of their Friends. I wish I was either in your arms full of faith or that a Thunder bolt would strike me.
God bless you
J.K—
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1 chaff | |
v.取笑,嘲笑;n.谷壳 | |
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2 jealousies | |
n.妒忌( jealousy的名词复数 );妒羡 | |
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3 colonists | |
n.殖民地开拓者,移民,殖民地居民( colonist的名词复数 ) | |
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4 unbearable | |
adj.不能容忍的;忍受不住的 | |
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5 brass | |
n.黄铜;黄铜器,铜管乐器 | |
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6 averse | |
adj.厌恶的;反对的,不乐意的 | |
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7 consolation | |
n.安慰,慰问 | |
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8 misery | |
n.痛苦,苦恼,苦难;悲惨的境遇,贫苦 | |
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9 brute | |
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n.前景,前途;景色,视野 | |
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11 muster | |
v.集合,收集,鼓起,激起;n.集合,检阅,集合人员,点名册 | |
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12 brutal | |
adj.残忍的,野蛮的,不讲理的 | |
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