我结婚了，但是并不快乐

　　婚姻中只有爱情是不够的,更多的应该是包容和理智.激情会逐渐消退,美好也会慢慢褪色,但是生活中相互依靠的温暖和信任是爱情给不了的.来看看小编为大家选的这篇双语阅读材料:

　　I got married when I was 23 years old, and for a while I was unhappy. I couldn't break up our marriage cuz I had always believed divorce¹ was not an option. So I tried to live one day at a time, not over-thinking the future, hoping that things will get better some day.

　　我23岁就结婚了，但是没过多久，我觉得并不快乐。我不能终止婚姻，因为我从来没有觉得离婚是一种（解决）方式。于是我每天得过且过，不多考虑将来。希望事情会在将来自己改善。

　　The problem was, it was all me, my wife didn't do anything to upset me and she's genuinely² innocent³. I didn't laugh when she was telling jokes, mainly because she can't tell jokes and always mess up the punchline⁴, it's also because I didn't love her anymore, but I tried to crack a smile as hard as it was.

　　但问题是，所有问题都在于我。我的妻子从未做过任何让我失望的事情，而且她非常的单纯。她讲笑话时，我都不笑，因为她根本不会笑话，主要讲不好笑话的梗，也因为我不再爱她，但我还是挤出无比尴尬的笑容。

　　I didn't even notice when she wore something new or fixed⁵ herself for me. I was aware of my problem and that's why I was going crazy, the fact that it's all me. That being said, I have never hurt her or even said something unpleasant to her, I never acted on those feelings, I kept my shit to myself.

　　我甚至都没有注意她穿了新衣服，或是为我停留。我意识到是我的问题，这就是我为什么抓狂的原因，而且问题完全在我。所以我从来都没有伤害过她，或是讲过什么令她不悦。我不表现这种情绪，都一个人默默承受。

　　One day I had to just get away for a while, clear my mind, and try and see a bigger picture, if there was one. Of course I didn't make it seem like i'm taking a break or anything, i'm a good actor.

　　一天，我不得不暂时离开，清理下脑子，试着展望下未来，如果那个未来存在的话。我没有让这次离开看起来像我要休息一下，或是别的（让她误会）的事情，我是一个好演员。

　　So I left, and took a road trip. Driving always helped me get better for the night. I drive alone and talk out loud and let it all out so I don't burst up and explode during the day.

　　接着我开启了我的公路之旅，独自一人开夜车让我觉得好过些，我大声讲话，让情绪发泄，这样不至于在白天失控爆发。

　　Nothing happened during those silent days of driving, except that she called me twice everyday to check on me.

　　在那些安静开车的日子里什么都没有发生，除了她每天两通电话，看我是否安好。

　　She never missed a call, and suddenly I realized that I was waiting for her to forget to call me. I keep realizing how much of an asshole I am.One day while driving I had a moment of clarity⁶, it was so beautiful that I smiled and cried at the same time.

　　她从来都没有漏打过一个电话，突然间我意识到，我就是要等她忘记打电话给我，我愈来愈觉得自己是一个十足的混蛋。一天在开车时，我突然清醒了，我边微笑边哭泣，这种感觉真是太美妙了。

　　My mind drew a picture for me and here it is.. My wife crying while i'm not there or I can't see her, then she gathers herself and acts normal when im there, and tries to tell a joke just to get me to smile even though she knows she can't tell jokes, and for some reason, she was wearing a white dress.

　　脑海中虚构的场景浮现在眼前。我的妻子，在我不在或是看不到她的时候抹眼泪，当我在的时候，强打精神，恢复常态。尽管知道自己不擅长讲笑话，还是尽力博我一乐，而且不知何故，她身着一袭白裙。

　　I was thinking about my own happiness so much that I forgot to think about how miserable⁷ i'm making her feel. I never hated myself more than I did at that moment.

　　我只顾自己的喜乐，却忘了顾及她的感受。在那一刻，我从未如此讨厌自己。

　　I turned the car around and drove home, and while i'm on the road, I kept imagining her in that white dress. It made me happy. And I recalled⁸ some of the jokes she had told me before, and I laughed about how she messed up the punchline every time.That was three years ago, we had two daughters since then and I can't believe how lucky I am that I didn't mess it up. I'm thankful that she didn't leave me when she had every excuse to. I'm not exaggerating⁹ when I tell you that with every love song that I hear, I think of her.我将车掉头驶向家，一路上我不停想象着那穿那条白裙子的样子，这让我很开心。

　　接着我想起了之前她给我讲的那些笑话，想起她每次都说不好笑话的梗，我笑了。3年前，我有了两个女儿，我不敢相信自己是多么幸运，而且我也没有（像之前一样）把事情搞的不愉快。我很感激她没有离开我，即使在她完全有理由这么做的情况下。一点都不夸张的讲，之后每当我听到情歌，我就会想起她。

　　So to the people who think they don't love their partners anymore, dig a little deeper. There's a scene in the movie Hachi: A Dog's Tale, where the father asks his daughter's boyfriend, "Do you love my daughter? Because that's what you want to remember in the bad days."

　　那些觉得自己不爱父母的人，请在扪心自问下。在关于狗狗电影《《忠犬八公的故事》中，有一个场景父亲曾问女儿的男朋友，“你爱我的女儿么？因为在以后不愉快的日子里你也要记得这点（你爱我的女儿）。

　　Thanks for reading this.

　　感谢阅读

1 divorce   

n.离婚；分离；vi.离婚；vt.离婚；脱离

参考例句：

• Did he divorce his wife or did she divorce him?是他要和妻子离婚，还是妻子要和他离婚？
• None of us like the divorce of word and deed.我们都不喜欢言行不一。

2 genuinely   

ad.真地；确实地

参考例句：

• She appeared genuinely surprised by this gesture of affection. 看来她真的被这个爱意的表示惊呆了。
• She seems genuinely fond of the children. 她似乎真的喜欢这些小孩。

3 innocent   

adj.无罪的，清白的；无害的；天真的，单纯的

参考例句：

• I'm not quite so innocent as to believe that.我还不至于简单到相信那种事的地步。
• I was very young,and very innocent.我那时非常年轻，幼稚无知。

4 punchline   

n.（笑话、故事等的）结尾警语，点睛之笔

参考例句：

• Even then,the magical pause can strengthen the punchline.即使这样，有魔力的停顿依然可以增强笑点。
• A good joke or a mystery novel has along wind up to the final punchline.好的笑话或神秘小说都是一路曲折，直至最后的笑料或真相。

5 fixed   

adj.固定的，不变的，准备好的；(计算机)固定的

参考例句：

• Have you two fixed on a date for the wedding yet?你们俩选定婚期了吗？
• Once the aim is fixed,we should not change it arbitrarily.目标一旦确定，我们就不应该随意改变。

6 clarity   

n.清澈，透明，明晰

参考例句：

• His writing has great clarity of style.他的写作风格清晰易懂。
• Mozart's music is characterized by its naivety and clarity.莫扎特的音乐特色是纯朴兴清澈。

7 miserable   

adj.悲惨的，痛苦的；可怜的，糟糕的

参考例句：

• It was miserable of you to make fun of him.你取笑他，这是可耻的。
• Her past life was miserable.她过去的生活很苦。

8 recalled   

回忆起( recall的过去式和过去分词 )； 使想起； 使想到； 勾起

参考例句：

• I recalled that he had mentioned the problem once. 我回忆起他曾经有一次提到过这个问题。
• The sight recalled the days of childhood to me. 那情景使我回忆起童年。

9 exaggerating   

（使）扩大( exaggerate的现在分词 )； （使）增加； 夸大； 夸张

参考例句：

• The hotel was really filthy and I'm not exaggerating. 我不是夸张，这旅店真的很脏。
• The salesman padded the bill for his travelling expenses by exaggerating his food expenses. 那个推销员在用餐费上弄虚作假，多报差旅费。