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A month later it was half-term. I was going home at last.
Wait—no, I wasn’t.
Pa, apparently1, didn’t want me to spend the break wandering aimlessly around St. James’sPalace, where he’d been mostly living since his breakup with Mummy, and where Willy and I hadlived whenever it was our allotted2 time with Pa. He feared what I might get up to in that big palaceall by myself. He feared I might glimpse a newspaper, overhear a radio. More, he feared I mightbe photographed through an open window, or while playing with my toy soldiers in the gardens.
He could imagine reporters trying to speak to me, shouting questions. Hi, Harry3, do you miss yourmum? The nation was in a state of hysterical4 grief, but the press’s hysteria had veered5 intopsychosis.
Worst of all, Willy wouldn’t be at home to watch over me. He was at Eton.
So Pa announced that he’d be taking me with him on a planned work trip. To South Africa.
South Africa, Pa? Really?
Yes, darling boy. Johannesburg.
He had a meeting with Nelson Mandela…and the Spice Girls?
I was thrilled. And baffled. The Spice Girls, Pa? He explained that the Spice Girls were givinga concert in Johannesburg, so they were calling on President Mandela to pay their respects. Great,I thought, that explains why the Spice Girls are going to be there…what about us? I didn’t get it.
I’m not sure Pa wanted me to get it.
The truth was, Pa’s staff hoped a photo of him standing6 alongside the world’s most reveredpolitical leader and the world’s most popular female musical act would earn him some positiveheadlines, which he sorely needed. Since Mummy’s disappearance7 he’d been savaged8. Peopleblamed him for the divorce and thus for all that followed. His approval rating around the worldwas single digits9. In Fiji, to pick just one example, a national holiday in his honor had beenrescinded.
Whatever the official reason for the trip, I didn’t care. I was just glad to be going along. It wasa chance to get away from Britain. Better yet, it was proper time with Pa, who seemed sort ofchecked out.
Not that Pa hadn’t always been a bit checked out. He’d always given an air of being not quiteready for parenthood—the responsibilities, the patience, the time. Even he, though a proud man,would’ve admitted as much. But single parenthood? Pa was never made for that.
To be fair, he tried. Evenings, I’d shout downstairs: Going to bed, Pa! He’d always shout backcheerfully: I’ll be there shortly, darling boy! True to his word, minutes later he’d be sitting on theedge of my bed. He never forgot that I didn’t like the dark, so he’d gently tickle10 my face until I fellasleep. I have the fondest memories of his hands on my cheeks, my forehead, then waking to findhim gone, magically, the door always considerately left open a crack.
Other than those fleeting11 moments, however, Pa and I mostly coexisted. He had troublecommunicating, trouble listening, trouble being intimate face-to-face. On occasion, after a longmulti-course dinner, I’d walk upstairs and find a letter on my pillow. The letter would say howproud he was of me for something I’d done or accomplished12. I’d smile, place it under my pillow,but also wonder why he hadn’t said this moments ago, while seated directly across from me.
Thus the prospect13 of days and days of unrestricted Pa time was exhilarating.
Then came the reality. This was a work trip for Pa. And for me. The Spice Girls concertrepresented my first public appearance since the funeral, and I knew, through intuition, throughbits of overheard conversations, that the public’s curiosity about my welfare was running high. Ididn’t want to let them down, but I also wanted them all to go away. I remember stepping onto thered carpet, screwing a smile onto my face, suddenly wishing I was in my bed at St. James’sPalace.
Beside me was Baby Spice, wearing white plastic shoes with chunky twelve-inch platformheels. I fixated on those heels while she fixated on my cheeks. She kept pinching them. Sochubby! So cute! Then Posh Spice surged forward and clutched my hand. Farther down the line Ispied Ginger14 Spice, the only Spice with whom I felt any connection—a fellow ginger. Also, shewas world-famous for recently wearing a minidress made of the Union Jack15. Why’s there a UnionJack on the coffin16? She and the other Spices were cooing at me, saying things I didn’t understand,while bantering17 with the journalists, who were shouting at me. Harry, over here, Harry, Harry,how are you doing, Harry? Questions that weren’t questions. Questions that were traps. Questionsthat were flung at my head like cleavers18. The journalists didn’t give a toss how I was doing, theywere trying to get me to say something messy, newsy.
I gazed into their flashes, bared my teeth, said nothing.
If I was intimidated19 by the flashes, the Spice Girls were intoxicated20. Yes, yes, a thousand timesyes, that was their attitude every time another flash went off. Fine by me. The more out-front theywere, the more I could fade into the woodwork. I remember they talked to the press about theirmusic and their mission. I didn’t know they had a mission, but one Spice compared the group’scrusade against sexism to Mandela’s struggle against apartheid.
At last someone said it was time for the concert to begin. Off you go. Follow your father.
Concert? Pa?
Impossible to believe. Even more impossible while it was actually happening. But I saw it withmy own eyes, Pa gamely nodding to the beat and tapping his foot:
If you want my future, forget my past
If you wanna get with me, better make it fastAfter, on the way out, there were more flashes. This time the Spice Girls weren’t there todeflect attention. It was just Pa and me.
I reached for him, grabbed his hand—hung on.
I recall, bright as the flashes: Loving him.
Needing him.
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v.(尤指交通工具)改变方向或路线( veer的过去式和过去分词 );(指谈话内容、人的行为或观点)突然改变;(指风) (在北半球按顺时针方向、在南半球按逆时针方向)逐渐转向;风向顺时针转 | |
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