人物:我和罗克·哈德森的秘密恋情

 My Secret Love Affair with Rock Hudson 我和罗克·哈德森的秘密恋情

The late star's long-ago boyfriend shares their vacation album—and memories of their forbidden romance 这位已故明星很久以前的男友分享了他们的度假专辑——以及他们被禁的浪漫回忆

He keeps the photos in an antique box in his bedroom closet—mementos from a long-ago love. 他把这些照片放在卧室衣柜里的一个古董盒子里，作为很久以前的爱情纪念品。

"We couldn't take any pictures together, only of each other,"says Lee Garlington, 81, a retired¹ investment manager who had a three-year romance with screen idol² Rock Hudson in the mid-1960s. “我们不能在一起拍照，只能互相拍照。”现年81岁的李·加林顿是一位退休的投资经理，他在上世纪60年代中期与银幕偶像洛克·哈德森有过三年的恋情。

The pair, who met when Garlington was a Hollywood extra, had to keep their affair hidden because "being authentically³ who he was would have shattered his career," says Mark Griffin, author of a new biography of Hudson, All That Heaven Allows, to which Garlington contributed. 加林顿还是好莱坞的临时演员时他们相识了，他们不得不隐瞒他们的恋情，因为“如果他暴露真实的一面，就会毁掉他的事业，”马克·格里芬(Mark Griffin)说。他是哈德逊的新传记《天堂所允许的一切》的作者，加林顿对此也有贡献。

Hudson's 1985 death from complications of AIDS brought his sexuality—and the disease's awful reach—out of the shadows. "He became a poster boy for a global pandemic," Griffin notes. 1985年，哈德逊死于艾滋病并发症，他的性取向和这种疾病的可怕之处由此浮出水面。格里芬指出：“他成为了一场全球流行病的代言人。”

More than 30 years later, Garlington spoke⁴ to People and shared exclusive shots of a trip he and Hudson took in 1963. 30多年后，加林顿接受了《人物》杂志的采访，并分享了1963年他和哈德森出游的独家照片。

"He was so handsome," Garlington recalls, "and we had so much fun." We rented a house on the beach in Puerto Vallarta. “他太帅了，”加林顿回忆说，“我们玩得很开心。”我们在巴亚尔塔港的海滩上租了一栋房子。

He was the biggest movie star in the world, but people left him alone there. They didn't even know who he was. We walked on the beach and took pictures of each other with his camera. 他是世界上最著名的电影明星，但是人们不理睬他。他们甚至不知道他是谁。我们在沙滩上散步，用他的相机互相拍照。

I remember driving around in an open jeep...just living the life of two normal gay men that loved each other. I was 25, Rock was 37. 我记得我开着一辆敞篷吉普车四处兜风……只是过着两个相爱的普通同性恋的生活。我25岁，洛克37岁。

He never asked me to keep our relationship quiet—he just assumed I would and I did. It was a prescription⁵ for financial suicide to admit you were gay. We'd see each other three or four times a week. 他从未要求我保密我们的关系保持——他只是认为我会这样做，而我做到了。承认自己是同性恋无异于经济自杀。我们每周见面三到四次。

Rock was easygoing on the surface, but inside he was a bundle of nerves—he chain-smoked, and he grated on his thumb with his forefingers⁶ until it was concave. 洛克表面上很随和，但他的内心却非常敏感——他一根接一根地抽着烟，用食指捏着大拇指，直到大拇指凹下去。

He was terrified that his entire life would be ruined by one false step. On the other hand, he was one of the most promiscuous⁷ gay men in Hollywood. 他害怕自己的一生会因为一次失足而毁了。另一方面，他是好莱坞最滥交的同性恋之一。

I wanted a father figure, and he was not able to be that—he wanted one too. It was one of the reasons we went our separate ways. 我想要一个父亲的形象，但他做不到——他也想要一个。这是我们分道扬镳的原因之一。

Plus the fact I did not like the Hollywood scene. I didn't know he had AIDS until I read it in the paper. 再加上我不喜欢好莱坞的场景。直到我在报纸上看到，我才知道他得了艾滋病。

I called up the people taking care of him at his home, and they said he wouldn't recognize me and it would be best to remember him how he was. 我打电话给在他家照顾他的人，他们说他认不出我了，最好记住他的样子。

I feel very guilty for not being there for him. He helped people see that anyone could get AIDS. It was not a "moral affliction" and not a "gay disease." 我为没有陪在他身边而感到内疚。他帮助人们认识到任何人都可能得艾滋病。这不是一种“道德上的痛苦”，也不是一种“同性恋疾病”。

But he never knew the impact he had. After Rock's death I learned he had told his biographer that his mother and I were the only people he ever loved. 但他从不知道他的影响。洛克去世后，我得知他曾告诉他的传记作者，他母亲和我是他唯一爱过的人。

I broke down and cried. I had no idea. It's so sad that he didn't have the opportunity to live his life the way he wanted to. 我忍不住哭了。我不知道。他没有机会以自己想要的方式生活，这太令人难过了。

I wish he had been born 30 or 40 years later. He'd be elated about how much has changed. 我希望他在30或40年后出生。他会为发生了这么大的变化而高兴。

 

1 retired   

adj.隐退的，退休的，退役的

参考例句：

• The old man retired to the country for rest.这位老人下乡休息去了。
• Many retired people take up gardening as a hobby.许多退休的人都以从事园艺为嗜好。

2 idol   

n.偶像，红人，宠儿

参考例句：

• As an only child he was the idol of his parents.作为独子，他是父母的宠儿。
• Blind worship of this idol must be ended.对这个偶像的盲目崇拜应该结束了。

3 authentically   

ad.sincerely真诚地

参考例句：

• Gina: And we should give him something 2 authentically Taiwanese. 吉娜：而且我们应该送他有纯正台湾味的东西。
• A loser is one who fails to correspond authentically. 失败者则指那些未能做到诚实可靠的人。

4 spoke   

n.（车轮的）辐条；轮辐；破坏某人的计划；阻挠某人的行动 v.讲，谈（speak的过去式）；说；演说；从某种观点来说

参考例句：

• They sourced the spoke nuts from our company.他们的轮辐螺帽是从我们公司获得的。
• The spokes of a wheel are the bars that connect the outer ring to the centre.辐条是轮子上连接外圈与中心的条棒。

5 prescription   

n.处方，开药；指示，规定

参考例句：

• The physician made a prescription against sea- sickness for him.医生给他开了个治晕船的药方。
• The drug is available on prescription only.这种药只能凭处方购买。

6 forefingers   

n.食指( forefinger的名词复数 )

参考例句：

• When her eyes were withdrawn, he secretly crossed his two forefingers. 一等她的眼睛转过去，他便偷偷用两个食指交叠成一个十字架。 来自辞典例句
• The ornithologists made Vs with their thumbs and forefingers, measuring angles. 鸟类学家们用大拇指和食指构成V形量测角度。 来自互联网

7 promiscuous   

adj.杂乱的，随便的

参考例句：

• They were taking a promiscuous stroll when it began to rain.他们正在那漫无目的地散步，突然下起雨来。
• Alec know that she was promiscuous and superficial.亚历克知道她是乱七八糟和浅薄的。