月亮和六便士 第二十九章(4)

 I wanted to kill him, and I only made a fool of myself. “我要杀死他，结果却徒然使自己出丑。”

He was silent for a long time, and then he said what I knew was in his mind. 他沉默了半晌，最后他说出的我知道是郁积在他心里的话。

If I'd only waited, perhaps it would have gone all right. “要是我多等些日子，也许就不会发生什么事了。

I shouldn't have been so impatient. 我真不应该这么耐不住性子。

Oh, poor child, what have I driven her to? 啊，可怜的孩子，是我把她逼到这一地步啊！”

I shrugged¹ my shoulders, but did not speak. 我耸了耸肩膀，但是没有说什么。

I had no sympathy for Blanche Stroeve, but knew that it would only pain poor Dirk if I told him exactly what I thought of her. 我对勃朗什·施特略夫一点也不同情，但是我知道，如果我把实话告诉可怜的戴尔克，只会增加他的痛苦。

He had reached that stage of exhaustion² when he could not stop talking. He went over again every word of the scene. 这时候他已经疲惫不堪，无力控制自己，所以只顾滔滔不绝地说下去。他把那场风波中每人讲的话又重复了一遍。

Now something occurred to him that he had not told me before; 他一会儿想起一件忘记了告诉我的事，

now he discussed what he ought to have said instead of what he did say; then he lamented³ his blindness. 一会儿又同我讨论起他当时该说这句话，而不该说那句话。

He regretted that he had done this, and blamed himself that he had omitted the other. 他为自己看不清问题感到万分痛心，懊悔自己做了某件事，责怪自己没有做哪一件。

It grew later and later, and at last I was as tired as he. 夜渐渐深了，最后我也同他一样疲劳不堪了。

What are you going to do now? I said finally. “你现在准备做什么？”我最后问他说。

What can I do? I shall wait till she sends for me. “我能够做什么？我只能等着她招呼我回去。”

Why don't you go away for a bit? “为什么你不到外地去走走呢？”

No, no; I must be at hand when she wants me. “不，不成。如果她需要，我一定要叫她能够找到我。”

For the present he seemed quite lost. He had made no plans. 他对于眼前该怎么办似乎一点主意也没有。他没有什么计划。

When I suggested that he should go to bed he said he could not sleep; he wanted to go out and walk about the streets till day. 最后我建议他该去睡会儿觉，他说他睡不着，他要到外面去走个通宵。

He was evidently in no state to be left alone. 当然，在这种情况下我决不能丢下他不管。

I persuaded him to stay the night with me, and I put him into my own bed. 我劝他在我这里过夜，我把他安置在我的床上。

I had a divan⁴ in my sitting-room⁵, and could very well sleep on that. 在起居间里我还有一只长沙发，我可以睡在那上面。

He was by now so worn out that he could not resist my firmness. 他这时已经精疲力竭，所以还是依着我的主意上了床。

I gave him a sufficient dose of veronal to insure his unconsciousness for several hours. 我给他服了一些佛罗那，叫他可以人事不省地好好睡几个钟头觉。

I thought that was the best service I could render him. 我想这是我能够给他的最大的帮助了。

1 shrugged   

vt.耸肩（shrug的过去式与过去分词形式）

参考例句：

• Sam shrugged and said nothing. 萨姆耸耸肩膀，什么也没说。
• She shrugged, feigning nonchalance. 她耸耸肩，装出一副无所谓的样子。 来自《简明英汉词典》

2 exhaustion   

n.耗尽枯竭，疲惫，筋疲力尽，竭尽，详尽无遗的论述

参考例句：

• She slept the sleep of exhaustion.她因疲劳而酣睡。
• His exhaustion was obvious when he fell asleep standing.他站着睡着了，显然是太累了。

3 lamented   

adj.被哀悼的，令人遗憾的v.（为…）哀悼，痛哭，悲伤( lament的过去式和过去分词 )

参考例句：

• her late lamented husband 她那令人怀念的已故的丈夫
• We lamented over our bad luck. 我们为自己的不幸而悲伤。 来自《简明英汉词典》

4 divan   

n.长沙发；（波斯或其他东方诗人的）诗集

参考例句：

• Lord Henry stretched himself out on the divan and laughed.亨利勋爵伸手摊脚地躺在沙发椅上，笑着。
• She noticed that Muffat was sitting resignedly on a narrow divan-bed.她看见莫法正垂头丧气地坐在一张不宽的坐床上。

5 sitting-room   

n.（BrE）客厅，起居室

参考例句：

• The sitting-room is clean.起居室很清洁。
• Each villa has a separate sitting-room.每栋别墅都有一间独立的起居室。